Sunday, January 14, 2007
Sometimes i really wonder..
who reads my blog?
Who really cares for me?
Who really loves me?
Who really understands me?
Who really would be willing to be there for me when i'm down?
Who would think of me?
Who would share their chocolate with me?
Who would buy me donuts when i'm starving?
Who are actually my friends?
Somehow this year is a new year,no doubt but i just feel that this year does'nt seem like a good one. Maybe it's just my negative thinking but guess that's how i feel.
Nothing really seem to be going right.
nothing.
Had a bbq party at dear's home. Went to buy the stuffs and started off late cuz had to wait for ah neh who were marinating the chicken. Guess it was fine but there were'nt really much bonding and too many a clique, honestly, i dint feel it. I dint really felt that it was a birthday celebration for me. Went back, swensen ice cream cake was good and talked lots to vanessa which was good. Then i was so tired and bored that i fell asleep till3am and woke up till 4 plus before sleeping again.
woke up and went to church and the taxi driver was so nice. THought he was abit gayish at first but he's nice. He g ave me his no so i could call him anytime i needed a cab.
how sweet(:
Went to church and was welcomed by my dear sister.
i seriously miss her alot despite the many verbal wars and slaps we give each other
Didnt went in for sermon cuz i did not wanna disturb the others adn so we sat outside and listened.
After sermon we took some pics as we got bored..
me, stella
stella and jason(cousin)
sisters
stella's famous pose- stupid silly funny face
My sis is so cute i tell you
ooooawwwwhh!~
i love you baby sister(:
Hmm, do you think my sis and i look alike? she's 14 and so puny while i'm 20 and so big! oh gawd! Speaking of that i'm turning 20 in an hour's time and i'm totally dreading it. my last hour of a teen. enjoy it mich=/
Anyway ya might be wondering why am i so sad adn feeling so negative about my life and friends and all. I guess it's the stuffs i face everyday, the people that talk to me and life as a whole. I remembered talking to glen just last week
mich: bloddy hell i'm turning 20. no one in wols remembers my bday=/ sad siare
glen: rmb there's a reason?
mich: wat reason?
glen: you go figure
mich: nvm la, its ok.
till now i still dun know what the reason is but i guess it's fine. Maybe ignorance is bliss?
goodnight.
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10:05:00 PM
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stella and jason(cousin)
